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1st entry in may

2010-05-15T11:41:00.002+08:00

Dear blog, this period of time, i really didn't have the mood to blog..coz of all those dramatic incidents that happened in my life and of coz, becoz of the busy sch schedule. But thru all these, i realised that essentially, all i wanted is not to regret of some decisions in life. It may sound simple..but to be able to decide between being termed as stupid or to regret and blame oneself later on in life, it's really a hard decision to make. Whatever it is, i m starting to learning not to regret whatever that i have done and will do. After all, we only live once..and if we keep hesitating, then we may miss more great things in life..:)

Being single might not be so bad...:)

2010-04-11T23:04:00.002+08:00

Dear blog, despite several attempts to blog, there was some error and i never managed to publish my post. Hopefully this post goes up. Anyway, hmm..i m gonna be single and available soon. Hmm...things just didnt work out between me and him. Sometimes i wonder whether it's me or just his prob. On second thoughts, it takes two hands to clap..haiz..forget it...if it doesnt work out, then that just means that we are not fated to be together...

End of 2009

2009-12-30T12:07:00.004+08:00

Dear blog, It's been sooo long since i last blogged. Hmm..the APOC conference has been great...presentation has been quite smooth sailing and we had great experience in hong kong. This trip has even motivated me to get higher qualifications such as a doctorate coz i m kinda interested in doing something else other than hospital work and optical shop stuff. However, given this period of time, i realised that studying is realli hard work. Maybe i m just not cut out for studying bah..out of interest is ok..but if studying requires exams, then it's not out of interest anymore. To think about it, i gave up so much for this degree...my full time job, my passion-piano and least to mention, my time with my family. I have never regretted my decision of taking up the degree course, but just that sometimes, i realised that to make a decision is easy, to uphold ur decision is the hard part. Well, it's finally the end of the year, so mani things have happened this year and definately have made me a wiser person. Shall work harder in this new year to come ...Happy new year in advance..:)

Less than one week to APOC

2009-10-31T10:47:00.002+08:00

Dear blog, I am feeling kinda stressed out...by the sch work, the APOC presentation and more. Well..i suppose stress is just an inevitable part of life...learning to make friends with it now. WEll, less than one week to hong kong..hopefully will be able to do well for the presentation..and those delegates there wont ask too much questions..coz i m not sure how well prepared i m for this presentation. Keeping my fingers crossed...and wish me luck ok.:)

2nd week of school

2009-10-29T19:48:00.002+08:00

Hi blog, time flies when you are having fun. So now it's already the second week of school. well, sch work starting to get a bit more busy..lifestyle alittle more hectic. It would be soon that i return to my frenzy mode bah. Well, this sem's modules are indeed interesting even though they are on the tougher side. Well, i m enjoying every single minute of it.:) It's less than a week to hong kong trip. The presentation slides should be somewhat confirmed after meeting up with dr tan tomolo. Hopefully can take time for a swim tomolo..life's so boring without any exercise to make my heart pump faster. Esp when the lipids are trying to befriend every single inch of my body. I had a talk with someone this afternoon, made me realise something important..shall change that stupid character of mine. Hmm...shall end here bah..kinda shag from all those work..and still some assignments to research on..otherwise next week i will be busy with the hong kong presentation le. Shall upload the photos when i m back.:)

2nd day of 22 year old

2009-10-17T23:17:00.003+08:00

Yoz yoz!~ Had a memorable 22nd birthday yesterday. Woke up at 9plus in the morning to realise that it was rainning when my intention was to spend the day at Jurong Bird Park. Luckily the rain stopped and the sun came out after a while. Even though the floor was kinda wet but it didnt kill my mood to see the birds. Caught some bird shows, saw my favourite penguin and walked for quite a bit..that's about all bah. Then after which, went to coffee club at Jurong point to sit down and read magazine while waiting for Madel..then in the end at about 8pm, she had something important on and couldnt meet me for dinner. Felt abit disappointed..but i bought a chicken wing and a few delicious egg tarts before heading home to cheer myself up. Finished my dinner at 10 plus and was preparing to wash up and saw alot of missed calls from madel. Ended up she rushed down to my house to give me my pressie. Thanks dear if you are reading this..:) Love the Winnie the Pooh bear. Haha..and accompanied martin and madel to makan at the coffeeshop downstairs. It's truly a memorable birthday..hmm..even though last year spent in taiwan was also great fun. Well, hopefully this year will be filled with optimism and joy. :)

Happy birthday to me

2009-10-16T10:16:00.003+08:00

Happy birthday to all october babies including myself..hee...october marks a pretty important month as my bdae falls on it and it oso means that christmas is coming soon. One year is coming to an end and we are having a new year soon. Isnt all these exciting? Haha..thanks to all my friends who celebrated and had the sweet thought to get me sumthing. Hmm..for today, going out to bird park...then probably that's all bah...too lazy to play till late night le. Then at night, probably open my dessert wine and chill in front of the tv. Well..that's all for now..shall get ready to go out le..:)

Finally bloggin

2009-09-23T10:35:00.003+08:00

Yoz pple..m here to clear my cobwebs...hmm..been so long since i last blogged..feel kinda weird that im here now. Well, life's been kinda busy even though it's holidays..busy with the APOC thingy and the batam trip. Finally got the stuff more or less settled..now awaitng the big day to come..cant wait for batam..hoped that it would be an enjoyable trip. Well, m feeling kinda lethargic today, maybe coz my flu is still around and stubbornly refuses to leave and it's been days since i have a day to myself. Well, shall go for a swim later and see whether it improves my mood. Tata!`

Exam fever

2009-08-12T00:17:00.002+08:00

Dear blog, here i m to clear my cobwebs in the wee hours of the morning. Anyway, couldnt realli get to slp..so decided to online and surf around. Well...prac exam for this semester is coming later on in the afternoon..dunno what to feel and how to feel. Just praying hard that things are gonna be alright. Feeling kinda stressed out for tis past one week. Well..i suppose that's the life of being a student bah. Shall learn to work with wat i have, instead of thinking about what i dun have. Anyway...since i choosed this path myself, i wont have any regrets..just grumbles once in a while la. If nowhere to vent..then very jialat de..hmm..well..nothing much to talk le la. M looking forward to batam screening and hong kong conference after exams...work life has been pretty ok...haha..well..that's all for now.. tata~~

Closing this chapter of my life

2009-06-14T23:35:00.002+08:00

Dear blog, Am not in a very pleasant mood...but nevertheless, trying to cheer myself up and think positive. Have been through some kind of setback..and feeling kinda nostalgic and emo. I dun wanna soak in self sympathy anymore..wanna lOok forward to a brighter future. Maybe it's now that i learnt that whatever's mine, will be...and whatever is not mine, shall never be.

Tests next week

2009-05-29T17:04:00.002+08:00

Dear blog, i have just finished part of my revision for the tests next week. M feelin kinda stresed out. THus, here i am, trying to destress and playing my facebook. Well, i tendered my resignation on wednesday, so i am serving my one month's notice now. Hmm..probably gonna rest for a month before finding another part time optical shop job bah. Haiz..i hope the information that i try to squeeze into my puny brain will guai guai stay there til the day my tests finish...shall stop here..to update again soon..:P

So long since i blogged

2009-05-26T17:14:00.002+08:00

Hi pple..you might have thought my blog was dead. But tadah! Here i am again. Well...m here today coz i got some grumbles. So if u are not in the mood to hear my grumbles, kindly close this window. Otherwise, here goes. So the story goes where my sch life and work life with the optical shop and music sch has kept me real busy wif barely enuf time to study and go out. So when my music sch contract ended, although i felt kinda sad to let go, but it was at the same time, a kind of relief for me. Thought that for the rest of my two years in uni, i will be happily working part time in the optical shop. However, i got into some kind of conflict wif my manager over the schedule thing. When sch started, i was initially scheduled to work every thursday. After which, she asked me to help out with every monday evening, which i did out of goodwill, even though i gotta go down after one whole day of class and work till 9 plus close to 10pm even though i have got 8am class the next day. And when this month's schedule came out, i was shocked to see myself scheduled for sunday. Especially the sunday right before the term tests. Next week is the term test le and i havent got much time to mug coz of work and if i were to work on the sunday right before the term test week, of course i wont be able to complete my revision. Furthermore, i have class from 8am on monday. BUT the main reason i told my manager i couldn't work is becoz our agreement was that i m scheduled to work on every thursday and monday. Sunday was never part of the plan. So without asking whether i m free, i was scheduled on sunday, which wasn't very wise move in my point of view, coz one shouldn't just take it for granted that i will be free...i m just a part timer, i didn't sell my life to the shop. Thus, i told her nicely that i really couldnt work on that sunday and she is now very upset wif me, as she claims that i keep giving her last minute changes. So now, she feels upset and i feel so unjustified with her claim, coz i was not supposed to be working on sundays. To end all these things, i decided to quit. WHY? Coz first of all, my manager couldnt stick to her words of arranging my schedule of every mon and thursday only. Second, she feels i give her alot of last minute changes, so why stay when pple find you a hassle rather than help. Third of all, i m sure if i don't leave, the same thing will happen again. Thus, i will be tendering tomolo and by 26th june, i wont be part of the place anymore. Will find some friends out to celebrate when i regain my free man status. that's all for now. At least i feel better after my grumbles. To update again soon on the outcome. :)

Back from hongkong

2009-04-09T10:39:00.003+08:00

Dear blog...i am back! Hmm..actually was back last week, but was busy with worK. So today i managed to sneak a bit of free time to blog in the sch library coz i came earlier for the schlarship interview and my work starts at 2 plus. Hmm..basically..stella and i went for 5 days 4 night to HK. First day....we woke up bright and earli at 4 plus. Then she cabbed over to my house and we proceeded to the airport. Reached air port at 5 plus in the cold morning..then went to check in luggage and went for our MAC breakfast. Hee..very fulling..then we boarded the plane. The journey realli nothing to do..coz it's budget airlines la..so no form of entertainment. Finally after 3 hours plus..we touched down. Stella and i took the airport express bus to jordan and managed to find our hotel. The Largos hotel, being a 3 star hotel, i didnt expect much la..but surprisingly..it's pretty clean and comfortable for that price. After settling down our luggage and unpacking..we took the train and went to Shen Zhen. The touting there..realli horrible. At one point of time..there was this lady who was practically dragging stella to her shop..haha..rite lala? Hmm..bought a bag and frame there. After which, we took the train back to hong kong at night. Had our lst proper meal at a eatery place. The food not bad la..esp when we were so hungry. But did i mention that the rice serving is like..HUGE. Second day...woke up at 9am..then went out at ten plus..got our breakfast..the wanton mee there..not bad leH..then we went shopping again..forgot where le..i tink stella remembers better than me. Hmm..i tink should be temple street? Well..all in all..we bought quite a lot la. Third day..i tink we went shopping again..should be at the ladies streeet..haha..cant realli remember..so i tink got to refer to stella's blog le. HMm.then fourth day..went to DisneyLand! It's soooo fun. And even though we reached at 12pm..even when the place was closing at 730pm..i couldnt get enuf of it. Haha..and the most memorable was the roller coaster ride. That stella said since the roller coaster is indoors de..should be quite low..and not too thrilling. Then in the end..i got the fright of my life lo..the ride to one point..damn fast and keeps turning. The worse thing is that..it's all pitch dark inside. Then during the ride..stella was asking..why wasnt i screaming. KAoz..the heart already at the mouth le..open the mouth..then heart drop out le mah. -.-'' Last day in hong kong..we wanted to go to back to temple street to shop. But while walking there..we passed by a shopping centre..went inside..and spent most of the money and time there. so in the end..when we left the shopping centre..was about 3 plus le. So went back to hotel to retrieve our luggage and make our way to the airport. Had our last hong kong meal at the airport. The mixed bbq meat rice..very superb! Hmm..went to board the plane and reached singapore at 12 plus in the morning. So that's all for the trip..very fun and memorable..and alot of walking. Haha..at least now that i had my fill of fun..i will be able to settle down my mind to study le..:)..For the photos..i cant seem to upload here..so stay tune in facebook:)

Flying to Hong kong in less than 24 hrs

2009-03-28T23:44:00.002+08:00

yoz pple! Here i m..blogging before i go take a short nap and i m on my way to hong kong... Well..feeling kinda relieved..finally finished my day of teaching which started from 12pm...then had short breaks in between..and finally finished. Hmm..feel kinda excited about the trip. Coz it's been about 5 years since i last went to hong kong. Well..shall update and post photos when i m back. stay in tune! :D

Going to hk soon...

2009-03-27T23:37:00.002+08:00

Dear blog, it's been so long since i last blogged. Well, been prety busy with sch induction programme, work, chinese orchestra, jamming and teaching recently. So less time to blog. Many things have happened during this period of time..both the happy and the unhappy. Shall just talk about the happy stuffs. The unhapiness..i chose not to bring it along during my journey in life. Well...i m going hong kong with stella this coming sunday! Cant wait for it..but there will be lots of things to settle once i come back from holiday. Haha..lol..there's always a price to pay. Following holidays,will be the long awaited sch term. CAnt wait for sch to start...learning new things..making new frens..a new experience in life. Not to mention that hanging out wif younger pple makes me feel young too. haha...SPCO is having a concert on the lst week of may i tink. M going down to help out wif performance..thought that i was never gonna step into there again. Well, time proved me wrong. As for jamming..the band's great..we are preparing quite a few songs..hopefully can do some gigs in the near future. Piano teaching in the music school is gonna end mid of may..coz i decided not to sign on another year of contract..lemme concentrate in my sch work lst bah. As for work..eye play is ok la...just that is kinda tiring sometimes..becoz of some issues. Well, that's all for now. Shall see if i have time tomolo night for one last entry before i go hk.. tata!~

Becoming a student again

2009-03-16T22:14:00.002+08:00

Dear blog, i m finally back to being a student again. Hmm..lst time in the past few weeks to wake up earli before the sun rise up high. Hmm..lectures was not directl academically related la..but it was good to see my classmates and frens again. After class, i went to music sch to hand in my resignation letter. Not gonna continue my contract for the next one year coz i dun tink i will be able to cope with sch, retail work and music sch. Hmm..the orientation is gonna last for one week. I thought my classmates and frens are gonna be free during this week...so i try to make myself as free as possible..then in the end..realised that mani pple still going back to worK. Shall find some actiivities to keep myself busy. After all, these few weeks is gonna my more flexible and free time in my schedule for this year. Encountered something not so happy. Realised that it is not a good feeling to feel neglected. But whatever that happens..i noe that things will be alright eventually. *Rainbow after the rain*

loneliness engulfed

2009-03-04T23:40:00.002+08:00

Dear blog, it's been reali quite a while since i last blogged. I left snec, wanting to rest, but went to work part time in eye play..and now i m starting sch soon. Hoping to be able to go hong kong for a holiday before sch starts officially..but now only got three pple..anybody interested? Otherwise, three pple, i will still be keen to go. Haha..hmm..went to SPCO just now..realised that the place is still the same. The same old place where i spent half of my poly life in...practising, playing music, chatting, eating dinner, having meetings...slp during camps etc. However, the pple are different..some of them who used to be around, are no longer there. The feeling is completely different and although the place is so familiar..i feel so foreign. well...starting to get a bit emo huh..haha..hmm..these three days off..so was slacking, practising piano and online..hmm..cant wait for next week to come. shall end here..tata!

so long nv blog le...

2009-02-18T23:20:00.002+08:00

hi pple..so long nv blog le. Well, life has been kinda weird for me these days. I have officially left SNEC for almost two weeks...and life has been pretty relaxing for me..to the extent where i feel that i m kinda wasting my life away. Well...i m currently working part time at eye play...it's a retail shop. Dun realli like the retail life..and i have already tendered my resignation. I mean..if u dun like something, why force urself to stay on. I believe that in working..it's best if u can do something which u enjoy and makes u and the pple around u happy. In my case, i believe a clinical setting will be that case. Anyway..i m starting my refresher course for uni mid of march..so i m working till lst week of march for the retail shop..then go for refresher course. And after refresher course..i m planning to go Hong Kong for a short trip..to destress myself before sch starts. Hee..all work and no play makes jessie a dull ger. In life, no one is perfect...and everybody makes mistakes in some point of time along this journey. Whether we make mistake anot is not a big issue. But what is important ...is to learn from the mistakes and not regret...Well..am realli anticipating sch life..hee..tata!

Last day of work

2009-02-05T09:04:00.002+08:00

Dear peopple...i m currently still at home on a thursday morning..why? Coz i have left SNEC officially. Two years there..realli learnt a lot of things. Learnt clinical stuff..learnt how to deal with difficult people, lazy people etc. Learnt to cherish the things which i always took for granted. Well, it's been a realli fruitful experience there..the tears and joy..shall never forget. Well, will definately miss my frens over there..haha..anyway, i tink i probably will go down and visit them when im free. Hmm..special thanks to sok hong, madel, chiew luan for the laughter u put into my life over in SNEC. I will be starting work at Eyeplay today..working part time. Keeping my fingers crossed that i will do well in the retail oso..coz it's been two years since i last touched retail stuff. Hmm..and yesterday work was kinda light in the afternoon. Went for the lo hei thingy..coz i was the MC. Was kinda fun la..just that the cheong sum abit too short for my liking. Anyway...after which, i met my dearest stella to go Nikon Mura for dinner at Novena..stuffed myself wif food. haha..this morning woke up at 8am..coz awoken by a few smses...and here i m ...getting myself mentally and physically prepared for the new place. Shall update again...stay tuned!~

Happy new year

2009-01-26T10:50:00.002+08:00

Greetings people! It's the lst day of chinese new year today and i m sittin gin fron of the tv now...watching some tv programmes while surfing net. Yesterday, had reunion lunch and dinner. AFter which, went out wif madel & martin, lisa and dan to the chun1 dao4 he2 pan4 to walk walk. But the place was quite small..so didnt take much time to finish walking around. AFter which, walked all the way to clark quay for beer at this pub, which serves their home brews. Imagine this, drinking ice cool beer with tortilla chips at 11 plus in a windy night. Where could be a better place to spend new year's eve? Hee...and i spent my 12am on the taxi...reached home at 12 plus then bathed and online till 2am. So here i m again..hope to make full use of the time these two days to finish up watever i have yet to finish. Shall stop here..tata!

Nostalgia

2009-01-20T19:11:00.003+08:00

Dear blog, Here i am again, let's see what i m up with these few days. Well, saturday was working in SNEC, then rushed back home to teach piano at 3pm and went out to teach in sch from 5-9pm. Sometimes i realli wonder was i in the right state of mind when i arranged my schedule in this hectic manner. Anyway, it's over. Sunday was teaching private and then rushing down to the sch for make up lesson, only to realise that the student was 45 mins late for the 1hr lesson. Kinda made me fuming. Well, after which, met yiwen, huiting, xueling, jia ying and not the forgot bdae ger celia! Had lunch at Jacks' Place and then, caught a movie at the Cathay. The movie, Passengers, all i can say was draggy, irrational and waste of time. Sorry for the crude comments, but realli felt like kena cheated of my time. Yesterday, was on MC, due to some unexpected circumstances..i tink i must have took some thing strong that aggravated my stomach cramps. Today was good...i brought enuf stuff to keep myself occupied at the Geylang Clinic...and i did only two patients for the whole day. And here i m, full, slightly drownsy and satisfied, sitting at the TCC in Changi Airport. Gonna send Lim Jing off later at 9pm...hopefully yue kai and yue jer reaches abit earlier to keep my company..otherwise, i will surely be bored to death. Hmm..but at least i have got my trustworthy laptop to keep me company. Kinda feeling nostalgic...hoping to go back to something, somewhere in time. Well, i wonder why do pple always miss the things that they have missed.

On leave...

2009-01-15T09:43:00.002+08:00

Dear blog, guess what? I am on leave today..well, thank god that i m able to get leave for today, coz the events for the past few days realli drained me out and i have got a flu bug clinging on. Well, not going to do much for today, just going for a run later in the morning then swim in the afternoon. Evening time gonna meet up with my snec colleagues to go walk walk in chinatown,since it's just nearby, followed by dinner there..so i gotta shed some fats first before dinner tonight. Then tomolo wil be Munchies in NUS..heard that the food there is good...according to yue jer..so we shall see la. Shall upload tons of pics in my facebook..so tata for now!~ :D

Post on 8th jan 09

2009-01-10T11:58:00.000+08:00

Dear blog, Here I am in clinic again. Geylang clinic. Coz Karen needs to be in SNEC for audit, thus, that explains for my presence here. Well, there’s no patients here today, so luckily I brought some stuff to do. At least I m better prepared than the last time where I spent hours staring at the four walls in my room. Hmm..i can still remember vividly how I spent my January last year in geylang clinic too. Well, I cant believe how fast time flies…and here I m again. Well, I have already tendered my resignation for SNEC, waiting for HR to inform when is my last day. Hmm..and two days ago I received the email from SP that I m shortlisted. Kinda looking forward to all that is going to come, coz it will be something new and refreshing. No more monotonous working life. A lot of changes are gonna take place this year. No matter what they are, may I pray that everything will turn out smoothly. :D

Getting past the first week of 2009

2009-01-06T23:02:00.002+08:00

Dear blog, here i am, 11 plus in the nite. In the comfort of my room, i m sitting in front of my lap top and noting down the details of my life. Well, basically it has been another hectic week bah. New year's eve, went to Feng xia's new house...it's nice lo...wonder why she kept saying not veri nice. Haha...then New year day, initially wanted to stay at home and fix my comp de..but something unpleasant happened...thus on impromtu, went out for swim and badminton with lim jing. The next day, went back to work, suffering from severe body aches and blister+blue black. Luckily lim jing wasnt too harsh when we play badminton, otherwise i would have suffered from more injuries. Anyway, friday was pretty free la...did only 2 patients the whole day in geylang clinic. Spent half my time clearing the room and doing my own stuff. Saturday, went for breakfast with Madeleine at holland V Brekos...she woke up late, so as a smart aleck, i dropped off a few bus stops earlier to walk there..however, unknown to me, i didnt noe tat the distance between each bus stop is actually quite long. And i walked for 5 bus stops. Hmm..after which, we went to town to do some shopping. Night time caught Yes Man movie with matthew. Hmm...the movie is funny la..but not very nice in my opinion bah. Coz the jokes are quite shallow.. Sunday, went swimming again, then went to a fren's house for table tennis. However, i received two msgs at 6 plus..from my weiling and stella..asking where m i. And i was like .....?????!!!!! I kept tinking that we were going out on 4th, which is a monday.stupid blur me wif my puny little brain. sorry gers...i will make it up to u gers the next time ok? :( Coz i was dressed in sports shorts and shirt, havent bathe from my swimming earlier on 45mins to get home and another 1 hour to bathe and go to chinatown. Thus, i told lala that i realli wont be able to make it..Hmm..i suppose u guys sure had a lot of fun there rite? So sorry...:) Monday came...and as the story goes where i thought monday is 4th, i typed out my resignation letter and was proof reading it one last time when i realised i got the date wrong. Grrr...so i retyped and passed it to my boss who accepted it without much significant questions. Thus, i will be officially resting from work in one month's time. That's all for now bah..shall update again tomolo...tired le..going to Zzzzzz...nitez!

Life is never a bed of roses.

2009-01-03T16:19:00.002+08:00

Dear blog, here comes my first entry of the year. Well, it's the third day of 2009 le. Worked yesterday in geylang clinic. Was super duper light and had very little patients. There's realli lots of challenges that lies ahead in tis year. Dunno whether i will be walking alone or there will be pple walking wif me. In any ways, well, i will keep my fingers crossed that i will make thru all these alive. Hmm..to take things on a lighter note, i m realli looking forward to being a student again. The carefree life, unrestricted schedules...what else can i ask for? Well...lesson learnt for this year: "Dun be worried over things which u have no control over...coz it doesnt change the situation."

New year's eve eve

2008-12-30T08:51:00.002+08:00

Dear blog, It's a bright and sunny morning. And i m in office, stealing some time off to blog before clinic gets busy later. Well, hasnt been doing much except eating, playing and slping these few days. Ytd, went back to work. Load was ok la..so dun have much of monday blues. Haha..then after work, went to millenia walk harvey norman with matthew to get my net book...according to him, it's quite a good bargain la. I got mine for 688bucks with free optical mouse, anti virus cd and 2gb thumb drive. Went for dinner and dessert afer that. Thus, this morning, i think i somehow lost part of my voice. M realli struggling to speak out loud. Grrr...shouldnt have talked so much yesterday. Hee..anyway, tomolo is new year's eve. This year has realli been a sick one for me...hoping that next year will be a more beautiful one..lols..:D

It's christmas soon!!~

2008-12-22T09:24:00.003+08:00

Dear blog, it's been donkey years since i last blogged yea? Coz my comp going to die le..then my hp which is supposed to be a touch-screen..now the screen is not having any sensitivity. Grr...anyway, despite all these, my mood is super duper high coz it's christmas time soon. A time where u hear all the carolling going on in town areas, cold wind blowing at night, and tons of good food and gifts. Hmm..have been spending the nights of the past three days wrapping presents and writing cards. So tired yet fulfilling. Realli love to see how people's face brightens up when they see the gift. Though nothing pricey nor beautiful, just candies and chocolates wrapped up together, but it realli lit a smile on people's face. Maybe that's what i realli like about christmas--to lit a smile. Well, this coming week, m still in KKH, it's fun la..got the xmas feeling oso. Hmm...then xmas eve going for lunch wif a fren..after which attending xmas service with cluan. Christmas day, i have decided to wake up bright and earli to go cartel for xmas breakfast all by myself...need some time to myself and think some things through. After which, will be kbox lunch with my dear madel and pple. Then the next day, i managed to get off!!~ Hee..so going swimming with lala then dentist appt and meet yue kai and bro for dinner. Highlight of the week- celebrating my dearest ling's bdae! Happy advanced bdae to u!!!!!~ Haha...this week is realli gonna be full of fun. Just hope that my cough will recover soon..then i can be a greedy ger and gobble down all the good food. Well, shall update again soon..tata!

Freaking pissed off...

2008-11-29T12:31:00.002+08:00

Dear blog, i m soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo pissed off now. This is just another grumbling seesion...so pardon me and pls dun read if u dun wanna hear me whine and curse. Dunno why is it just my luck or what.m still staying back waitin for cyclo patient even though it's after work. Hmm...then this morning, had two case of attitude kids...realli attitude lo..i nothing to say. Grrr....hate kids who dun even wanna try and read and keep asking for stickers. So in the end, becoz of that two case, i wont be able to step out of clinic before 1pm i suppose. Then yesterday night, missed two bus after dinnr from parkway parade, coz kena cut queue by a bunch of malay ah bengs and lians when i was standing in front of the bus, while they were smoking behind initially. Kaoz..realli awes me why i couldn't get myself on the bus when i m standing right in front lo. And to add on, my whole month over here, dun even have a proper lunch time. Always have patients till 1pm likdat...then gobble down my lunch then work all the way till 5.30pm. Feel like a cheap labour. Or maybe if i count by the number of eye tests i do, realli IS a cheap labour. Hmm..forget it..maybe i just lost the passion after i see the ugly side of some pple. Or maybe the lack of lunch is making me grumpy. Whatever it is...so sorry about the grumbles..at least i feel better now. ARRGH!

End of novemember

2008-11-27T12:10:00.002+08:00

It's the end of the month again. In a few days time, will be changing clinic again. Well, it's the month of december finally. *Jingle bells jingle bells...lalal!~* Haha...sooooo looking forward. Hmm..decemember kinda packed with actiivities..maybe that's why i m anticipating it. Earli decmember will have movie with madel and of course shopping and swimming with my dearest lala...then there is still the CO competition, if hh or fh manage to get into the finals..jia you worz guys! Hmm..then the SSO xmas concert, outings with my mushroom, going out wif my CO peeps..and of course..my dear dear weiling's 21st bdae! Hee..decemeber is sooo much fun...mayb it doesnt take much to make a person happy..:D

It's monday again...

2008-11-24T14:15:00.002+08:00

It's a long month..maybe becoz of the piling patients that comes in continuosly, leaving me with no time even for a sip of water. Well, i have never believe that life is fair. And this situation proved me to be right. Well, it's monday again and a busy one. At least life is happy over here. Wonder how will life be in a few months' time..will i be happier than what i m now? Will things still remain the same? Will i lose the friendship of those whom i cherish? I fear the unknown. To put things on a lighter note, life has been hectic for the past one week. 20mins of lunch time, going home to teach, rushing here and there. Hmm..but at last, sunday, went swimming with my dear lala...realli very relaxing. After which, went for lunch at Cafe Cartel' IMM..had harwaiian pork chop..and was soooooooo full by the time i clean off my plate. Realli thank god for the food...was so hungry after the swim. AFter which, went daiso to grab a few things. M preparing for Xmas le..kinda excited bah..coz of all the festive seasons, my fav is christmas, followed by lunar chinese new year. Hmm..and this is the fav part of the year, where christmas decos can be seen almost at every shopping mall, the halls looming with bright lightings and booming with cheery christmas music. What a month that i hope will come soon. I hope that some things will change for the better while others will remain the same. :D

It's monday

2008-11-17T08:19:00.003+08:00

Dear blog, As usual, it's monday again. Weekends was tiring la..dunno why...maybe just that my body cant take slping late and gorging food very well. In any case, m i glad it's only 1 month plus away from xmas. Hee...today m back at work again. Just saw the patient load..it's 100 patients today..if they all decide to come. And there's only two of us working. So i m realli crossing my fingers tight, hoping that not all the kids turn up bah..otherwise, i will realli have a bad case of headache and body ache. Lol...Hmm..i finally cleared up my room during my 3.5 days of leave. Shall upload the pictures later..as well as bdae celebration for yiwen and huiting. Stay tuned!

I love my life...

2008-11-13T09:47:00.002+08:00

Dear blog, It's thursday already. How time flies when u are having fun yea? Well, my part of me long to go back to work. Why? becoz i realli think i m a born workaholic. Feel kinda strange to have stopped working for three days...and trying to relax and rest at home. Well, it's a different feeling though. Anyway, i m going back to work tomolo le..hee..i bet all the kids are missing me rite? Lol..kidding. Well, i could still remember last year, i was in subsidised clinic and was wondering how will this year be like. And here i m sitting in front of my PC and ponders how will next year tis time be like? Will things still be the same? Will i change for the better or worse? Well, this is the time of my life where changes are bound to happen and i m keeping my fingers crossed that with every decision i make, i will never regret.

It's monday!

2008-11-10T11:17:00.002+08:00

Dear blog,it's monday today...and i do not have any monday blues...why? Becoz i m in hpb this month and i m on leave from mon pm till thursday! YEA!!! haha..anyway, just need to clear my leave la. And oso in the meantime, clear up my room and run some errand. Anyway, m on serious dieting plan this month. Just realised that my gorging of food realli impacted significantly on my weight. Even though not over weight la, even my height..but cant help but wish to be slimmer..haha...dotx..So well, will be jogging, running and swimming for the next few days. Gotta go le..tata!

More photos coming up...

2008-11-07T08:17:00.005+08:00

More photos to come...

2008-11-06T09:11:00.002+08:00

Thursday

2008-11-06T08:49:00.009+08:00

Dear blog, I just realised that i have never ever loaded a single pic into this blog of mine. Thus, i have decided to upload some pictures. Hmm..it's from 2 weeks ago i tink. To dim sum buffet, then mushroom outing to kbox..enjoy!~ Anyway, while waiting for the fotos to load, just let me talk abit more. Well, it's gonna be friday soon. Life realli flies past fast when u are enjoying it yea? It's friday tomolo..yipee! M going to run with stella after work today, then tomolo gotta prepare for my piano lesson. And tadah! It's gonna be saturday. Hmm..this sunday, going for lunch wif tze siang and the rest...kinda funny how come he will suddenly ask us to go out for lunch. But well, afterall, we havent met since donkey years la.

5th Nov

2008-11-05T09:16:00.002+08:00

Dear blog, Yawn! It's a lazy morning...oops..did i say lazy..? Haha..am at work now..supposed to be a dilligent and intelligent worker. Hmm..lets see..it's only 9 plus now..so taking some time off to blog while waiting for patients to come. Hopefully patients won't flood into the clinic like yesterday. Kaoz..that realli kept me busy past lunch time. Well, i am in HPB for this month. Basically, running eye tests for kids who failed their sch screening. well, it's kinda different setting la..but at least i get off work on time, unlike in SNEC where i can stay up to 7pm waiting for the doctor. Haha..will be cherishing my life here for this month. Anyway, seems like my body is not in good condition these days...keep falling sick...kaoz..hope to recover soon so that i can go back gym to run. Shall go back to work now..tata!

It's the end of the year again...

2008-10-31T14:16:00.002+08:00

Dear blog, It's coming to the end of the year again. This year has realli been an eventful year for me...learning to deal wif failures, losing some things which seemed very important to me at that certain point in time, learning to love, respect and accomodate. Well, i wont exactly say i behave like a 21 yr old mature adult, but at least i try to bah. After all, life is an endless journey of continuous learning. Now as i m sitting in my office, i start to ponder, how will next year be like? Will life be dull in comparison to tis year? Will life still be the same with all the decisions i have made? Will i be maintain my sanity? Haha..lol..just wondering about all these things coz mind feeling a little lazy to work after a rushed but heavy lunch. Well, shall get back to work. Quote of the day: "Whatever that doesn't kill u will make u a better person."

Sick again

2008-10-30T20:47:00.002+08:00

Dear blog, i am here again..sick again siar..Haha...dunno why keeping falling sick. So i took half day off to go home and slp at home. After the medication and 4 hrs slp...i feel a little better le...but still feeling a little bit comfortable. Tomolo is the last day of october..m dispatched to KKH whole day...keeping my fingers crossed that clinic will run smoothly. Hmm..shall stop here...tata!

Happy belated bdae to all october babies!

2008-10-26T20:58:00.002+08:00

Dear blog, its been sooooooo long since i last blogged. Well, was busy wif work and preparing for my taiwan trip. anyway, let me try to sumarise all the events that occured..if my puny brain can remember. Well, lst of all, special thanks to huiting, celia, xueling, peiru and yiwen for the scrap book and dress...realli LOVE the scrap book...reminded me of how we spent our past six plus years together...it's realli something that money cant buy. Thanks to my dearest mushrooms and my CO peeps for the spectacles...looking forward to get it.:D thanks to all for your bdae wishes too..hmm..my 20 year old life has been kinda in a mess...in terms of the way i manage some stuff..so with the coming of the adulthood, hopefully this will be a good year. Well...anyway, i m gonna post up the fotos for the taiwan trip in facebook..so wont be talking much about it..well..was fun la..but some unhappy things happened too..shall not talk about it. Today, went for dim sum buffet wif zk, mei xian and violet ...after their great eastern run...and after lunch, met up wif stella and xiang hui to shop around and settled down at Waraku for dinner. Didn't eat much coz my lunch was still occupying a HUGE space in my stomach. Thanks xiang hui for the treat! Hmm..m soooooo looking forward to tomolo..going kbox wif my dearest mushrooms... shalll go load some photos into my comp lst...stay tune!:D

Belated Happy Childrens' day

2008-10-02T09:03:00.000+08:00

Hi pple! 1st of all, happy childrens' day to all peeps out there! Hmm..time realli flies fast when you are enjoying yourself huh? Haha..we have finally come to the month of october. Well, i could still remember the series of event that happened in earli january this year and now it's already almost the end of the year. My birthday wish for this year will be that next year will be a better one. Hmm, let's see....yesterday, was a public holiday..so i went to anchorpoint to do some shopping and queensway shopping centre to get my running shoes. Hmm..didn't buy much, only two pair of heels from charles and keith, one nike running shoes and a water bottle. While buying the sports shoe, the guy serving me was litterally trying to hide his smile lo. Why? Coz he gave me the biggest size for women's shoe then obviously it was too tight la. In the end, he suggested that i get a man's sports shoe with a smaller size...and he was still smiling all the way. Grr...haha..but in the end, i realli had no choice but to get a man's shoe. Lol...now i noe how BIG my feet is. Hmm..m currently in office right now...clinic not veri busy yet, so stealing some time for myself. Anyway, i realised that my left big toe nail abit shaky wor..keeping my fingers crossed that even if it drops off, it wont be a tramatic experience bah. I miss my weekly swim and gym session! Hmm..one last thing, guys, guess what? 12 more days to my long awaited holiday. Ciao! :D

Going into the month of october..

2008-09-25T20:11:00.002+08:00

Hi blog! I am finally back. Am stealing some time to blog while i m checking my email coz my desktop is a bit slow today. Well, this week seems to be flying by, maybe it's becoz clinic is busy. Well, met with some unhappiness in life recently la..but anyway, good food never fail to cheer me up. Haiz..dunno why the world is so realistic lo..anyway, shall not brood over it le. On a lighter and happier note, i will be gg taiwan for a holiday..and spending my 21st bdae there. Finally a break from my hectic life. Hee..hmm..as for wishlist, nothing much la...just dun buy weird weird things like bikini etc la..(u noe who i m referring to yea? haha...) Anyway, maybe watch? bag? specs? Haha...it's the thought that count la..coz if i dun get these things for bdae, i am going to buy them anyway...lol..shall countdown to my long awaited holidays..tata!

My third day of MC

2008-09-19T10:35:00.002+08:00

Dear blog, i am back again..today on MC AGAIN...GRRR...stupid fever..ytd, i measured my temp before i went down to the doctor, making sure that there wasnt fever le...then when i went to the doctor's funny leh, how come the temp higher than what i have taken. So in the end, doctor told me to stay at home for one more day. Sianz leh..realli slp all day becoz the medication is drownsy and i have wasted three good days doing practically nothing. Haiz..but anyway,luckily today didnt go to work, coz this morning, had diarrhoea two times since i woke up one hour ago. At least this time round, my fever realli subsided and my toes dun have pus le..even though it's still green..and doctor assured me that it's the normal look. Haha..kinda cool huh..one green toe and one red toe..like the duochrome chart. Well, kinda guilty that my colleagues gotta cover my clinic for me when i m sick for this past three days. well, i told myself tat when i recover, i shall maintain a healthy lifestyle of slping earli, exercise right and eating good. It's so sickening to be ill...

I hate being sick!

2008-09-18T10:26:00.002+08:00

Dear blog, here i am again, feeling slightly better, so decided to blog a little before i go back to slp, just in case everyone thought i m dead. Well, cant realli recall much of what has happened since my last entry. But all i can remember is, life's busy, hectic, then all of a sudden, tuesday evening, i wasnt feeling well towards the end of the day, and the doctor sent one cyclo patient at 5.40pm. Thanks maybel and feng xia who waited for me...hmm..then during the bus ride, i was feeling so nauseous, but i forgot to bring plastic bag along. Thank god i didn't vommit in the bus. The moment i reached home, i started to vommit and LS. Kaoz..then when i go see the doctor, she "scolded" me, coz i blur blur gong gong didnt stick to specific timings when taking my antibiotic for my toes, then end up, my left toe seems to have a bit of infection going on, and she said maybe that is what's causing the fever. Thus, i followed her instruction and soaked and clean my toe regularly..and now guess what? I have got a green toe!! Grr..not exagerating lo..but the left toe, literally looked as if it has algae growing inside..WTH..later gg back to see doctor, then see how is it bah..coz today nv go work again..thought i will be well enuf, but last night, fever stubbornly refuse to subside..and during mid nite, i felt so nauseous that i woke up automatically to vommit. Kaozz..thru the last two days, i lost 1.5KG..think when i recover, i probably gotta keep up a healthy diet and lifestyle. It's realli tough to be sick, esp when u still got lots of things left undone..haiz..:(

It's saturday!

2008-09-13T15:16:00.002+08:00

It's in the month of september le! And i m moving into the second weekend le! One more month to my taiwan trip! Yupee! Haha...lol..working on my study proposal..gg to teach piano later. Tired...:D

Last day in KKH

2008-08-29T08:52:00.003+08:00

Dear blog, It's finally here!!! It's my last day in KKH today. NExt month, will be in paediatrics clinic in SNEC. At least i m back in SNEC again. Haha..keeping my fingers crossed that clinic will run smoothly, and most importantly, not over run. Haha..m sooooo happy...lol...coz coming to KKH realli kinda tiring my body out la..maybe it's my poor constitution bah..keep falling sick. And now, as i m blogging, i m down wif a slight flu and sore throat. Worse still, i forgot to bring my medication along. Grr..anyway, that means today, cannot talk loudly le..or not tomolo sure lose my voice again. On wednesday, went for the kushin-bo ladies night dinner buffet..about 34 dollars...didn't eat alot, unlike when i was in poly days, but felt nauseous and as if my stomach was about to burst lo..so in the end, didn't go meet stella and weiling. Sorry gers! :D Ytd, was a smooth day in clinic..then after which, went to gym for a jog...but after 3km of run, felt so uncomfortable that i gotta stop le..grr..havent' even complete half the journey of my 10km run..anyway, next month, hopefully i will have enuf time to run before i go to taiwan. M realli looking forward to the trip. Let's countdown! one month plus more to taiwan trip..:D

It's wednesday

2008-08-27T09:11:00.002+08:00

Dear blog, i won't realli say time flies, but anyway, it's the middle of the last week of august le. Finishing my posting of KKH soon. Well, still got one last ordeal. This friday's clinic is anticipated to be busy. Very busy. Haha..anyway, this saturday no need to work, so at least it's not that bad la. Last weekend, i went swimming wif lala on saturday, then went down to ALBI to get the gym bicycle thingy, then went to teach. Sunday, i caught BBCO's concert at SCH. Performance was ok..the musicians from hong kong was quite good...hmm..these realli stirred my heart and i felt like gg back to CO again..maybe i will be, but certainly not under that 'particular' conductor la. Well, shall start clinic soon. Tata!! Lesson of the day : ""What's not yours, will never be urs, no matter how close you are to it""

It's Friday again!

2008-08-22T09:18:00.003+08:00

Dear blog, Guess what? It's friday again!! Lol..nowadays, i see weekends as a day where i can slp in, slp late and no need to do eye tests. Maybe it's becoz i m out of SNEC this month, so i tend to talk less with my colleagues..and in the end, i feel kinda socially deprived...lol..next month, i will be back le la..so countdown: 8 more days to the month of September. Btw, did i mention that ytd was the last day of our Bahasa Indonesia course? Did an exercise, went through it, then went home le..from next week onwards, i will have one more free day le. Hee... Anyway, tomolo, i will be gg swimming with my dearest lala! It's been two weeks since we last swam le...hmm..then gg causeway point to get the exercise bike thing..then teaching at night. Sunday, will be teaching in the morning, slping in the afternoon, and gg for the BBCO concert at night. Well, so here goes my weekends...it's realli too short..haha..And i m realli looking forward to the taiwan trip in october...:D Anyway, that's all for now..ciao!

It's wednesday!

2008-08-20T10:31:00.002+08:00

Dear blog, it's 10+ in the morning now. Am at clinic..waiting for patients to come. There's some kids crying outside my door, a few pple walking by, and occassionally some curious kids that peeps through my door to see what i am doing inside. Never will they guess that i m bloggin ..haha..anyway..it's gonna be a busy morning later, so i shall just grab whatever free time that i have. These few days, seeing more babies..haha...actually they are a rather cute bunch of pple..when they dun cry, most probably means that they like u la. If only human relationships could be so direct and clear, how nice would it be.

Gone are the monday blues!

2008-08-18T16:31:00.003+08:00

Dear blog, here i am again. Clinic ended earli today. Thank god that all my cases are rather cooperative...hee...no monday blues today. Well, later meeting doris to take cab back to SNEC for the journal club meeting. Hmm...while working together, a thought suddenly struck me. How come kids can be so happy and adults can't? How come it's so hard to love and care for those who are un-loveable? Well, maybe this is the learning phrase that i have to go thru. That's all for now. Ciao!

Looking forward to next month

2008-08-18T08:43:00.000+08:00

Dear blog, now i am sitting in my office, waiting for patients to come..in KKH right now. Well, suddenly got those kind of feeling where i wish i could be back in SNEC soon. But gotta wait till next month bah. I realised that what i dun like about posting out is not more tiring, but becoz got not much pple whom i can talk to. And once i dun talk so much, i feel so uneasy. Well, i guess i just gotta bear wif it till next month. Anyway, tis week is the last lesson of my Bahasa..so i guess next time thursdays i will be free too..one more day to go out. Hmm..ytd was playing the madam white snake, a piano accompaniment piece for hsien han's solo...tink that song is actually quite nice..but sounds like the hokkien opera music. lol...shall go start my clinic le...hope that today wont be a nightmare. :D ciao!

MOnday is coming again..

2008-08-17T15:46:00.002+08:00

Dear blog, how time flies yea? It seems like friday yesterday and now today is sunday le. Haha..maybe after my 'nightmare' in KKH on friday coz the files were piling so high and the doctors kept sending..i suddenly dun realli like gg to KKH le.. well, nvm la..at least tomolo there's another optom wif me..and i m not alone, like friday. Hmm..looking forward to next weekend. Saturday was a busy day in geylang clinic. As usual, busy till 12 plus. Went home to clear up my room..tinking of giving my room a fresh coat of paint and new furnitures...shall c whether my budget permits. By the way, did i mention that i have taken in a new student..is at CCK area de..on sunday earli morning..it's fun la..and the place is not very far from mine. Anyway, m tinking of gg out for a jog later..life's pretty stressful these few days..shall try to destress abit ...ciao!

Thank god IT'S FRIDAY AGAIN!!!

2008-08-15T14:08:00.002+08:00

Dear blog, here i am again. It's friday and i m currently at KKH. Afternoon clinic has just started and i have only done one patient. Hmm...keeping my fingers crossed that i will be able to manage as the only optometrist today. Anyway, let me update abit about the last few days. Didn't update as i was in SNEC whole day. Went gym in the morning to shed some fats and lift some weights for the past two mornings. Woke up when the sky is still dark at 5 plus and take bus and go eye center. Dragged my tired body out of bed and by the time i stepped out of the house, felt so refreshed after i inhaled the morning 6am air. Hee...then ran abit, trying to work up my stamina and prepare for the marathon run...then had heavy breakfast before starting work. Think at this rate, my weight is gonna go up becoz of the HUGE breakfast. HAha..and when i say 'huge', it's realli no exaggeration. Hmm..for example thursday morning i had one slice of bread, one sunny sideup, one bowl of curry chicken which includes two breastmeat and two potata, last but not least, one cup of milo. Hee..need to eat well in order to compensate for my insufficient slp. Anyway, hopefully tis week will have time for my weekly swim. And did i mention that recently i took in one more student for my piano? Starts this sunday, teaching at 9am in CCK area..so no more late nights out for saturdays, i suppose. Hmm..feeling quite relaxed today, maybe it's becoz today is friday..maybe it's becoz it's 15th today..so another half month before this month ends and i go back to snec. Haha..i still prefer gg to gym in the evening..coz got more "hunks" as compared to the "aunties crowd" in the morning. Haha..oops..i m not hum sup ok..lol...that's all for now...tata!

11th August

2008-08-11T08:13:00.001+08:00

Good morning everyone! Today, i suppose it's holidays for those who are studying and for some who are working. But hospitals will not be closed. Thus, i am here comfortably sitted in front of the computable before work starts. After two days of fun, i m mentally well to start work le. Shall update more tonight. Tata!

Emo......

2008-08-10T21:20:00.002+08:00

Dear blog, Am feeling a little emo tonight..maybe was after the talk wif magdalene..maybe was after i saw jeremy's friendster note..maybe was becoz i m too tired..too may possibilites..i dunno. Well, as i was deleting away my blog entries just now, i was reading thru each of them..and all of a sudden, i felt a pang of guilt. Remorseful of why i didnt make certain decisions at that time, why i didnt let go of certain things sooner.Regretted how i behaved towards some pple some donkey years ago...wondering whether they have been upset for long..well, all these are some mistakes in life which i have to live wif..hopefully, all these will be great lessons so that i wont make the same mistake again..tomolo is monday..am looking forward to it after such a relaxing weekend..tata!

Deleted all my previous entries away..

2008-08-10T20:39:00.002+08:00

Dear blog, I have deleted away a part of my memories..some parts which brought so much joy and laughter, and another part which brought so much tears into my life. All these, i believe, even though i have deleted them away, they will be safely hidden somewhere inside a corner of my heart. This year hasnt realli been a very good year. In fact, my 20 year old life taught me alot. Many things which i naively thought was as simple as ABC. Every since i started working, i realised that i have changed..to somebody whom sometimes i dun recognise. But nevertheless, i know that my love for my frens and passion for music will always be there. IT's still the same old brand new me bah, i guess. Anyway, all those entries i have deleted was those i moved from my previous blog...so maybe i shouldnt have even wasted the time to moved back all these entries. Hmm..maybe it's time for a new start..to bury the ghost of the past and move on. It's then, where i can live on happier..:D

Hee..decided to blog again

2007-03-17T22:47:00.000+08:00

Yoz pple..hmm..decided to blog one more entry while i wait for the comp to load. Tinkin of finding new blog skin again. Hee..shall find a simpler one this time. Look forward to the new face. Hee..

Been donkey years since i last blogged.

2007-03-17T22:22:00.000+08:00

Hi pple..just in case u tink my blog is dead. IT'S STILL ALIVE!! Hmm..but doubt anyone will come and read le la. Initially wanted to close it down and open another one, coz my comp cant seem to enter blogspot.com webby. HOwever, this blog realliy contained so much of my memories that i didnt bear to delete the whole thing away. Perhaps all these will realli serve as a good way to remind myself of the mistakes i made and things i should not be doing again. It's been a month plus since i last enttry. My decision of gg to SNEC was a painful yet necessary one. Glad that i didnt make the wrong decision and at least i m able to know what's it like to be working in another environment. Tossing aside the not-so-appealing pay, my colleagues are great, i only work for one saturday per month and i get to practise on my retinoscope and do challenging refractions, i m happy wif the way things are currently. Not that life is dull, but refractions can be realli challenging sometimes. IT is also thru these patients, where i realised how precious our vision can be and no matter how bad things are in life, i have learnt to be more optimisstic, coz there are pple who are much worse than me. Perhaps it's all these that taught me how to appreciate life more bah. Moreover, my colleagues are a bunch of friendly and nice pple who brought me thru the ropes of how to get things done over there...special thanks to ryan and violet whom i dun tink they will be reading, but nevertheless, wanna thank for their patience on a pig headed person like me. Hmm...and sok hong joined SNEC oso..haha...with her ard, life is so much more fun. WHY??? Coz i still tease her like i always used to in yaer three. STill so guilible...haha...but cute la. Anyway, been such a long time since we had mushroom outing...dayne!!! WEiling!! STella!! Miss ya!!!!! Haha..ok...i tink i m gg mad. Haiz, so long nv see them le. Occasionally, when i m bored, i may tink about tp...wonderin how he is. Hope that he is doing great and he takes good care of his health bah...didnt wanna go down to the shop when he's ard..to avoid the moment of awkardness. Ok..tink i m getting emotional, dun talk about the past le. This week, has been pretty busy...coz maria on maternity leave le..then my speed of refraction is still not as fast la..esp when the elderly comes in and can only speak cantonese. Then i dunno why i keep standing while doing refraction...and my poor back is starting to ache--a definite sign of aging..lolz. Today, went back to SNEC for the B&L talk..was a recap on most stuff la..actually i wanted to go so as to learn more about the presbyopic lasik treatment la. Then after which, went for haircut, but still look the same to me. Then go walk walk dinner and home sweet home le. Tomolo gg for swimming session then piano lesson at 6pm. Dunno why till now the exam date not confirmed yet. Shucks...kinda nervous..pls god, dun let me fail again this time round, i realli worked hard for it. Hee..been a long entry...hopefully the next time, logging in to blogspot will be easier le..or not i will be shifting blog liao. K la..gotta go le...thanks for reading..tata!!~

Haiz

2007-02-07T15:56:00.000+08:00

I always thought tat i was mature and sensible. BUt this experience reali knock me into reality. The way i handed this matter was certainly childish and shouldnt have done that. I will always bear what u have said in my mind..for all these will be great lessons of life. Thanks for the memories during that period of time...realli appreciate it. Now..it's time to let go...dunno how long is it gg to take...but certainly, it's gg to be this time.

So long nv blog again./

2007-02-07T15:51:00.000+08:00

Hi pple, just in case u tink my blog is dead, it's not. Just that my comp cant get to the blogger page. So i m now using my sis' comp to blog. Hmm..ard two weeks nv blog le. Well, alot of things have happened. I left IGARD. Sad as i m, but i suppose one cant stay in a place forever. Sorry tiong peng. Hmm..signed on SNEC today. Pay not appealing, but the hours are. Just hope that i will not look back at the past anymore. In life, there are always regrets, but to look back at one regret and make another mistake for more regret is pure stupidity. Hmm..may i pray that my life in SNEC will be an experiencing one. To other of my frens out there..jia you worz. Working life isnt easy...but hope that five years down the road, i still see my frens in this trade. After all, all these didnt come easy.

Last day of sch

2007-01-26T14:20:00.000+08:00

Today is the last day of sch for us. Hmm..mixture of feelings. Going to get to the society le...felt exciting yet scared. It's like a hamster being let out of the cage for the lst time. Wanting to be free, but at the same time, scared of the hurdles that is gg to be encountered. This morning, had vivian's test. Tink i will miss her quite a lot. Realli a sweet and caring teacher and her class though boring, but never failed to interest me. After the last test for the semester, we had lunch wif Ms Yeo. This whole year had passed so quickly. Half year ago, i was still hoping that i dun have to go back and listen to the irritating noise of the metropsis. HOwever, now that i m graduating, i feel so sad that i m leaving. For the lst week after i grad, dun tink i will start work yet. Havent decided on where to work. TP havent given me his offer yet. Sometimes, realli feel that he takes me for granted just becoz i dun say anything. Dun tink he will be reading this. But hope that he will learn to grow up one day. Everybody gotta learn in the process of life and as a fren, i hope to see him grow into a mature man. Enuf of that, haha..getting too sentimental. Tomolo is the last day of clinic. Gonna start to work out a schedule for practising piano. Exams are drawing close and i hasnt been practising much this few days due to fyp. Looking forward to the new life ahead. Though sad as i m, but everything has to come to an end. As i just close tis chapter of my life, i m gg to open yet another chapter, something more exciting and something i have never been thru before. Just hope that even after i grad, will still stay in close contact wif my frens..esp my mushrooms. Gers..we will still continue to have feast rite? Will realli miss u gers..thanks for all the wonderful memories during this three years. although life hasnt been easy, such as studying for patho or mugging for exams and rushing fyp report, i m realli thankful for all the experiences...

Last week of sch

2007-01-24T10:59:00.000+08:00

So fast siar..now is the last week of sch. THe lst day of sch seems to be so near..yet so far. Hmm..time has realli passed mercilessly. It has changed me, and in fact all of us from the ignorant year ones to mature and responsible primary eye care practioner. Hmm...now is the time to search for jobs. Although i noe that most places are searching for optoms..but somehow, i wish that i will be able to work in a place where i can get more exposure. I nope that i m not good in sales..but i m certain that given time..i will be better than that somebody who critized that i act like a robot in front of my customers..*$%^&*..Anyway, ytd had roadshow in NTU. wah..realli alot of pple. Did at least 8 refractions. Then this morning wake up, arm aching..coz ytd do jcc..then arm sore le. Thanks to those students. Haha..then ytd, saw a NTU student...he's so cute..but no chance to see him le..sadz..Haiz..later still got ms lek test. Didnt study..but hopefully my past patho will help me bah.

stupid comp..

2007-01-19T21:08:00.000+08:00

Hi pple..so long since i last blogged. It's not as if i dun wanna blog. But my comp take such a long time to get to the blogger website. Anyway, ever since the last entry, quite a lot of things happen. Last friday, after vivian's class, went to work. Thanks mushrooms..i noe that sometimes i have to rush to work and may not be able to work on the report together wif u gers..but u noe i do my best in that too rite...? But realli wanna thank u gers for being so understanding. Saturday, had attachment at TTSH...was so fun...learnt a lot of things too. Realli made me realise that knowledge is limitless and graduating from SP wif a diploma is actually just the beginning. Sunday, was feeling so sick that i decided not to go out. Then came this week, where i m supposed to go for my interview at IGARD. Hmm..this weekm it finally dawned on me that when it's time to let go, no matter what, i will have to go. Perhaps staying will never do us any good. Hmm..praying that i will find a place, where i can enjoy working for the past 2 years. Today, had dispensing test..shucks..i tink i left my puny brain at home and i glazed the left lens onto the right side. I hope i dun fail. Haiz..stupid brain la.I tink it's time to relax le..after all, worrying so much on the things ard me has got no use bah. One thing before i forget...hmm...mushrooms.. sometimes i say cannot make it for fyp meetings is because of work and i hope that u will understand that i try not to cancel it because my place doesnt have abundance of employees like other chain stores and by taking last minute off, i m causing great inconvenience to my manager, which i always felt guilty afterwards. Hmm..but dun worry, FYP will still be my top priority..after all, i m still a student, at least for the next one week. Love ya gers.. MUacks..

New blog skin

2007-01-10T17:31:00.000+08:00

Two more days to submission of report. Everyone is rushing..and amist all these, i decided to rest for a while at the library to do up my blogskin. Been so tired for the past two weeks. Been slping for 5 hours plus on the average. After the submission of the report, i realli wanna reward myself for being so guai le. So next week i think the mushrooms are going for sushi buffet. Haha..can get the chance to see dayne gorge herself le..hee..going to miss it when i graduate.Hmm..finally done wif my discussion part. Still got a few parts which may need some ammendments. Been stressed recently not only due to sch work, but oso work stuff. Didnt come to a choice until today, hmm..most probably gg to work in IGARD if he provides me a decent pay and working hours.Besides, i have applied for my piano exam le..but dunno when is the examination date. The worst thing is that these few days coz rushing report, so never practise piano. Felt so guilty. Hmm..but all these things will be over soon, i guess. Yawn, so tired..shall go do my fyp stuff le..Tata!~

Blog so quiet

2007-01-09T14:18:00.000+08:00

Hi pple..wondering how come i didnt blog for so long? Coz my comp cant seem to access to blogger.com. So i wanted to blog on xmas and new year..but too bad. Anyway..it's been a great year so far..and fyp is ending soon..so stressful..haiz..now in class for EIC..so m editing my report and blogging..shall go change my blogskin ...hee..found a nice one..tata!!~

Last holiday of my poly days.

2006-12-18T16:02:00.000+08:00

Hi pple!!~ So long nv blog le. Hmm..why? Coz recently, too mani things happen le. First of all, quarelled wif tp. Lasted for what seems like donkey years...then after which, there was this unreasonable customer who sucessfully managed to piss me off. Thus, when i m in a bad mood, i tend not to blog. Hmm..but everything is alrite again. And guess what? HOlidays are here again? Hmm..actually now waiting for time to pass. Coz at lst i dunno wanna go manicure anot..so dressed up earlier..then end up, was raining..so didnt wanna go all the way just to do my nails. Hmm..i wrote out a list of things to do ytd..and i realised that i have so much undone..and part of me keep wanting to go overseas..coz i feel like i have been cooped up in singapore for such a long time. But due to some reasons, my mom disapproves of it. And well, kinda feel that she protects me too much. Way too much that if i were to survive outside on my own, perhaps i might die of hunger..*chuckles*..coz i dunno how to cook. Hmm...hence, i have decided to go abroad for further studies two to three years from now. Havent decided whether to get a degree in Music or Optometry. But i think i will have pletny of time to find out which one i like more during these few years when i m workin bah. Anyway, that's all for now. Merry Xmas to everyone out there..:D

Devoid of emotions..

2006-12-04T15:14:00.000+08:00

Hm..was still thinking about what happened over lunch. Was just telling my clique about my work situation. You can call me spoilt or lack of work of experience, watsoeva. I mean, i admit to both points stated above. And i oso admit that my work enviroment is good, just that there is this particular thing that i dun like. Someone commented that "ur world all good pple, our world all bad pple" This reali struck me hard..i dun realli noe what it is supposed to mean, but somehow, i feel as if someone struck me hard wif a hammer. Those work that i have done before, there wasnt much politics and i must admit that i m lucky to get a job in IGARD where my colleagues make life so easy for me. Perhaps i m not in your shoes, so i dunno how is it like ...and same thing, that u are not in my shoes, so you wont noe how it feels like. Some may think that i m just fussy and expect too much from work. But i reali beg to differ. If you were in my shoes, u might have felt the same, i assure you. Tis entry dun point at any one..but just wanna voice out how i feel. I may be childish at times, always complaining about this or that..but i have my serious side too.

Two more weeks before i embrace the holidays ..

2006-12-03T11:28:00.000+08:00

Hee..guess what? Holidays are just around the corner again. This is the best time of the year, i have to say. Perhpas becoz my bdae falls in oct..and perhaps the wonderful things in life often falls in end of year season. SUch as what??? Hmm..such as xmas sales, parties..etc. Hmm..lemme c what i have done these few days. Friday, had vivian's test...was a breeze bah..but hopefully i wasnt careless. Wasnt feeling well on friday..feeling drownsy..as in suffering from the effects after taking flu drops. Anyway, the moment i went home, without bathing..i bonked myself onto my bed and slept till 8 plus. Woke up and do my fyp things..then watched the pilot show!!~ SHUAI GE!!~ Hee..then after which went to bed again. Saturday was fun...was under chee kong for clinic. He is soooo cute...coz one of casper's px dragged..so in the end, chee kong did the GE for the px. Hence, we were all waiting for him to check our px. Then the funny thing is that he look flustered coz everybody was waiting for him. HAha...but things went well la. Just that my lst px...i tink got a bit of Down Syndrome. And at lst i didnt notice that..and i thought he was just a bit weird. Later on, when i asked him what is his visual requirements and he took a full ten seconds before he replied "uh", i realised there was some problem. But he's veri nice la...although didnt manage to do ophthalmoscopy coz he coz fixate..but he tired his best to be cooperative le. And this is oso the lst time i c chee kong tok to pple like kid. (In short, he's acting cute...*chuckles*) After clinic, rushed down to IGARD coz i thought that px that was supposed to come back this week might come back earli. So without grabbing my lunch, i rushed down, only to realise at the end of the day that she wasnt there. Anyway, i wanted to grab lunch liao...but that stupid retard guy say i took so long to reach blah blah blah..and ended up i feel so pissed off that i decided not to get lunch le. I m reali starting to dislike his way of doing things more and more. So next week there's gg to be a meeting..just great..so that we can all voice out our views bah. Hmm..after work, went to eunos cc for dispensary...then had dinner. Went home. Boring saturday. Haiz...

Rain rain go away...

2006-11-27T18:38:00.000+08:00

Haiz..it's another rainning day. Such days realli make me feel down. But i suppose it's like this in those snowy countries bah. After all, christmas is coming soon..in less than a month's time. One good news and one bad news. The good news is that this xmas wont have to be spent in sch. The bad news is, i will probably be tied down with fyp stuff. Lemme blog about what happened these few days. Hmm...saturday: Had clinic...was doing fast track..haha..the last px veri ke qi and abit weird lo..but well, nvm. Then after which, went to work. Saw this px who had grade 3+ staining in one eye only. I dont noe what is the reason for that. But i got her off her cl..and come back one week later...hopefully there's a improvement. Then there's this other lady, whom mike, my optom did the check on. That lady had +4.00DS OU and she has nv been corrected with spectacles before. And her family who brought her for the eyecheck didnt think it was impt to get her a pair of specs. It sounds like a case of neglected elderly...n realli pity that old lady alot. Hmm..anyway, after work, went for dinner..initially wanted to catch a movie de..but time slots were too late..so headed for home. Sunday, had piano lesson..haha..started to appreciate the lessons coz it only take place once a month. After which, slacked and watch tv. Monday, had ms lek's lesson. Then after which, went to look for Mr Lai. He is realli such a friendly guy. At least we cleared our doubts. Hmm..mushrooms..dun pai chi me can? I told u le i m not together wif tp..so dun make fun of me le. Although i go out wif him for dinners or movies..but we are just friends. Though i noe u guys are kidding when u say these..but it hurts leh..sobz..*got hear my heart break???* Anyway..jio me to go watch the OPEN SEASON k?? I wanna watch that..lurve ya gers..muacks..

It's friday again.

2006-11-24T18:18:00.000+08:00

Hi pple, i am back again. After ytd nite's entry, i sat there thinking..thinking about alot of things. Flipping thru the photos when i were young. *I thought only old pple do think back about their past, but no idea y was i doing that*. Anyway as i was saying, hmm..i realised that there are always ups and downs in life. If there was no downs, i wouldnt be able to appreciate the ups in life. Hmm..well, today feeling kinda moody. Didnt even feel like having breakfast even though i didnt have dinner last nite. After some thought, i decided that it wasnt worth it to get upset over such trival matters and decided to indulge myself in hot pipping coffee and sandwich. Today's dispensing was on rimlon. Haha..kinda fun. After which, had ms vivian's lesson, which i nearli fell aslp..coz not enuf slp last nite. After which, was EIC test...haha..i think my literature skills about to return all back to my literature teacher le. Anyway, hope to get a reasonable grade can le. HEhe... after that was dawn's lesson. 1st time had someone taller sitting in front of me. And i was desperately shifting my head to see..and somehow in the process, i tink i blocked dawn, who was sitting behind me. Anyway, 1st time 8-5 lesson. Feel kinda tired and drained. In order to reward myself for behaving in class *which means not falling aslp* I bought chocolate bars and finished it all up. Ate chips..actually wanted to buy fries..but on second thought, i dun tink i wanna get fat when D&D is coming soon. Shall end here..tata...

********Sometimes, it's not the actions, but the thoughts that count. Don't you understand that??? *********

My lacrimal gland is overworking..

2006-11-23T22:32:00.000+08:00

This feeling of overwhelming sadness has not been there for such a long time. I realli feel so disapointed and upset wif what happened. !@#$%&*(@%&^*()#$%^&*() How i hate this...

2006-11-23T11:52:00.000+08:00

I just read wei ling's blog..so here goes: 1.When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought? hmm.. it's another brand new day Haiz..gotta wake up earli to go sch n do fyp..sianz.. 2. When is the next time you will have sex? Hmm..nv had it before....how m i supposed to noe.. 3. What's a word that rhymes with "DOOR"? Lo... 4. Favorite planet? Venus..coz it's so mysterious.. 5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your mobile? My daddy...haha... 6. What is your favorite ringtone on your phone? Is vibration a kind of ring tone? My hp always in silent mode de.. 7. What kinda shirt you have on? A tube top... 8. Describe yourself in one phrase? Siao Cha Bo.. 9. Name the brand of shoes you're currently wearing? Hmm..i forgot the brand.. 10. Bright or Dark Room? Semi dark..in fyp room..what do u expect?? 11. What do you think about the person who took this survey before you? Hmm...veritically challenged? Haha..no la..just kidding..she's sweet, nice and chirpy..haha.. 12. If you're alone in a room with two beds, which one do you sleep on? I will combine the two and slp, coz i have got a big body mass..haha.. 13. What were you doing at midnight last night? What can i be doing? Reading scientific journals on bed... 14. What did your last text message say that you received on your mobile? Kena lame by somebody..u wanna noe what it says? Haha..come look for me lo...lol 15. Where is your letter box? Downstairs.. 16. What's a word that you say a lot? word...lame..haha.. 17.Who told you he/she loved you last? Nobody lurves me..sobz!!~ 18. Last furry thing you touched? My teddy bear... 19. How many drugs have you done in the last three days? Countless pandols..i was sick... 20.How many rolls of film do you need to get developed? I wont own a camera..haha... 21. Favorite age you have been so far? 19..i bet this is gonna be the best year of my life...yea!~ 22.Your worst enemy? Hmm..so far nope la..hopefully no in the future oso..haha... 23. What is your current desktop picture? Hmm..i dunno..i m not using my own comp... 24. What was the last thing you said to someone? I just said to kiat wee: "Look properly before u press the button" 25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly? I tink with the million bucks, i can play safer on an aeroplane..haha.. 26. Do you like someone?

Nope, i dun like 'someone'..i like everybody..

27. The last song you listened to? I forgot..got short term memory la..but i tink it's kiat wee's singing just now..although i couldnt quite make out what he was singing.. 28. If the last person you spoke to was getting shot at, would you jump in front of the bullet?

Hmm..does that person got bullet proof vest anot??

29. If you could punch one person in the face who would it be? The person who invented maths..haha.. 30. What is the closest object to your left foot? The leg of the table lo...

Thursday morning...

2006-11-23T08:24:00.000+08:00

Hi guys..here i m again..Had the talk ytd..what enterprenership(*my spelling not good*). Anyway, as i was saying..hmm..the talk abit sian la..Coz i noe that i wont get into my own business de. Afterall, business will make me lose my ethics, i m quite sure of that myself. Haha..so shall rather earn less bah. After the talk, i went down to library to get a few books. Still tinking about the case of nystagmus that i saw in the IGARD. Hmm..it's realli pretty interesting and it makes me more interested in neurology stuff. After which, that uncle called me and told me that he's finally finished his food and ready to go. The HDB roadshow cum eye screening quite boring. Coz by the time i reached, most of the eye screening done le, only left roadshow for me to do. Didnt close any sales ytd...kena nag by that uncle. Kaoz. Anyway, guess where m i now?? In FYP room, Kiat Wee is the subject..and i tink i just caught him falling aslp while reading the chinese text. Haha..poor thing..guess that's all for the update. Stay tune..tata!!~

Lazy cum rainy day...

2006-11-21T18:56:00.000+08:00

What a lazy day at home. Initially wanted to go out after i have revised some work and finish practising my piano. Den i remembered about my computer which have died on me. So i decided to c if i could fix it. To my dismay, i tink it needed some a technican instead of an optometrist to do the job. After which, i feel like baking cookies..Coz thanks giving day is coming. However, the laziness inside me caused me to go back to my room and Zzzz...And when i woke up, it was almost 7pm..wif several missed calls and messages. Mom is not cooking tonight again, wondering what to have for dinner. I m starving.

Lemme update on what happened for the past few days. Friday, we physcho ms chiang to cancel her lesson coz she was sick.. haha..and guess what? We suceeded..but feel a bit bad, as we made the rest of our class mates come for nothing. Hmm...sorry guys. After which, had lunch and mingle around in the FYP room. Class ended too earli and left me wif nowhere to go. Coz too earli to go home, too late to plan other stuff. So i decided to sms tp to see if he's free for dinner. And what pissed me off was..he asked.."what's the occassion?" Isnt dinner the process of putting food inside the mouth and making sure one is not hungry? How come still need occassion de? After which he called..and asked wanted movie anot. Wif nothing better to do, i agreed lo. Before gg down for movies, i went down to West CC to get my money for the CL study. Den tp said nv see our optometry centre in West coast before..so he went upstairs..and he saw Eu Jin..thus, was engaged in another long conversation. Eu Jin veri gao siao de lo..didnt noe he was on close terms wif adeline..hee. Anyway, by the time we left was 5 plus and went to Vivo. That place hor, got a ship..selling books de..it was so nice!!~ Hmm..lst time step onto a ship..coz my mum nv brought me to cruise before. Anyway, should go there and take a look. After which, watched movie..'The Casino Royale'. The movie is average la, not anything unexpected, and didnt feel well inside, thus kept coughing. Hope that i didnt irritate the people sitting next to me. By the way, the James bond inside hor, got 2 pacs and 1 lump..so as u can c, the figure not veri good. *Chuckles* So u probably noe why i said that the movie was average nia. The day ended in a way, which pissed me off again. But shadnt mention it le..will make my blood boil. Saturday, had clinic. Hee..the clinician so cute. But the patient is not. My last patient hor, realli out to play me lo. I do ret le , then proceed wif subjective refraction. It turned out that that kid just anyhow answer lo. Best VA was 6/7.5. Pinhole no improvement. Hence, i suspected the kid trying to be funny. I put the specs RX inside trial frame, he oso say cannot read 6/6 line!!! But guess what? His aided VA was 6/4.5. Stupid guy. Wanna play me out issit? Dun ever let me c u again. Or else...HAHAHAHA..*evil look* After clinic, had lunch at clementi wif ling, melissa n casper..then rushed off to work. Sold 2 pair of glasses nia. Hmm..i tink my sales not good...how to survive in this trade? Haiz. Anyway, ronshawn came, and after work, the three of us had dinner together. Sunday..was another boring day. Had fYP in sch. Peiboon was slightly late and when we started, it was almost 10 am i tink. Then to make things worse, the toilet upstairs no water. Which means that we have to walk to MAc toilet. Haha..but we had great fun wif lunch though, Even though Ms Yeo didnt bring us lunch and we were only left wif the cup noodles, courtesy of dayne. Monday came and i only had two hours of lesson. AFter which, went to West MAll wif hwee teng and iris..wanted to c if there is any retro clothes for D&D. After which, went home and prac piano. Evening time, went out again to meet huiting, yiwen and peiru. Wow..time realli flies. It has been 3 years since i have graduated from CCKSS. And i m so veri glad that we are still close as ever. It was CO who brought us together..and to tell the truth, ytd when huiting asked me whether i m ever gg back to CO. I considered for a moment...before i said NO. Haha..but i tink i wil probably go back, even if i dun like that 'lemon' bah. Hmm..had dessert at Hyatt as usual. The apple tart quite nice. Hee..that's all for update. Stay tune!~

Comp die le..RI

2006-11-15T21:55:00.000+08:00

I m sad to announce...that it just dawned on me that i m a perfect..*chuckles* perfect computer idiot!!~*sigh!!~*My computer onli has a recycle bin(otherwise known was dustbin)and what's the use of it when i dun have anything else on my desktop? Stupid me go and kena virus and reformat my comp. I was always complaining that my comp dun have microsoft publisher...but now..my comp doesnt even have microsoft word!!~ *sobz!!~* At a time when i have to do my fyp, write report..and this have to happen. Any kind soul who is reading, pls tell me what's wrong that i dun have my internet explorer...i cant connect my internet. Thus, i m now secretly using my sis' comp, hoping she doesnt find out *crossing my finger* Anyway..i feel sick..realli sick. Thanks to that idiot who passed me the germs and claimed that i stole it from him. Using common sense, the greatest thief will oso not want to stela germs rite? Diaoz..tomorrow still got clinic. Hope that i can make it true alive and kicking. If you find things peaceful these few days, perhaps it's becoz i lost my voice. Today just finished Ms Lek's test. haha..killer la..so difficult. but on the other hand, can pass then can le..haha..ok la..i m gg off le. Wish me luck for dispensing tomolo..haha..tata!!~

End of e-learning week.

2006-11-10T23:03:00.000+08:00

This is the second last holiday dat i am havin, before i graduate and become a real ger. *Gulpz* Sounds scary to me. But at least i am moving on to another stage of my life. I wanna pursue my dreams...in the hope that my dreams wont get smashed. Hmm..seems like things are sort of planned out le. After i grad, most probably working for tp..then teaching part time piano. Getting my diplom in performance. If likdat count, dun tink got time for personal life. Hence, i m trying to play hard, so that i wont regret wasting my youth. Ytd, went to Sakura buffet after our fyp discussion..and omg!!~ I feel so sinful eating all those sooooooooooo delicious food. The incident of that lady sittin behind weilng and stella so funny. But at least that lady left before us. Den after which, went shopping and i bought ear rings. Hmm..ever since i started working, i realised that most of my money is spent to indulge myself. I saw this tube top in this shop in cineleisure. I realli like that top!!~ So cool..but the price abit steep lo. So i m still tinking. If i realli want it, then i will go get it after work le..haha..shall c how. Ok la..tired le..continue updating tomolo..do stay tuned!~

Sianz-sensation

2006-11-01T13:26:00.000+08:00

Hi guys...guess where am i now? U re right..am at project lab...hearing the beeping of the metropsis, poor slpy ivan sitting there and me sitting in front of the computer staring blankly. Sobz..how i wish i was at screening..might be more fun..here so boring *yawn*..i tink sharon hearing the beeping sound oso hear until sian le. Miss Yeo came in to 'spot check' a few times le..luckily i wasnt slping when she came in. Hmm..ivan like wanna slp le..if weiling was here..*chuckles*..perhaps he wont be so slpy le. I M SOOOOOOOOO BORED!!!!!~ Forget it..nobody is gg to hear me. Just let me rot and die here. KAoz..deprived social life...

EIC class

2006-10-31T13:46:00.000+08:00

Now in EIC class, the teacher veri cute..stand in front keep toking and toking about motivation and relationship. Hmm..interesting..but i tink my mind not here bah..dat's why abit sianz. Too many things on my mind nowadays. FYP is getting on my nerves. People reveal their true selfish character. Somehow it's sad that some pple feel to understand that they are students who happen to have some other committments and so i sincerely feel that we should noe where our pritorities are. Just filled in the FYP schedule. I can see my future holidays kena burned le..haha..but nvm bah..it's just for another three months. I am realli looking forward to working life. Realli anticipating. I am tinking of gg overseas for studies. But perhaps not so soon bah...coz i want to support my own education. Thinking of gg to UK or australia bah. Hee..shall c how bah..

sad..veri sad..

2006-10-31T09:05:00.000+08:00

Ytd..shouldnt have went down to orchard area to fix my fone.Den i could have stayed at home and not know that another of my colleague is leaving. I mean..as a fren, i realli enjoy her company..but somehow, if i were the boss, i m not sure whether i will still be feeling this way. I tink i will miss the times where we spend together. Hmm..ger..thanks for everything. Stay in contact k? Muackz..

Holidays coming

2006-10-29T12:13:00.000+08:00

Time realli flew past just likdat. Just read weiling's blog. Feel kinda sad. Hmm.. what she have said is true. Hw come things just couldnt be as simple as they used to be? Given my rash and hot headed character, i noe that i will probably get into a quarrel with someone before i get things done. Hopefully i can curb my temper bah. Anyway, in life, i finally realise that there is nothing known as fairness. Someone used to tell me, if there is fairness in the world, the anatomical position of the heart will be at the centre and not to the left side le. I guess that's true. So i have learnt to go for what i tink i deserve, coz if u dun go for what u want, pple will nv give it to u. Perhaps that's kinda self-centered thought, but as time goes by, i cant help but realise how true it is. If u dun tell pple what u wan, pple will nv noe, and if u get rejected in the process, at least u didnt let urself down, coz at least u expressed ur thoughts. Hm..fyp is getting on my nerves. And some pple are practically dancing on my nerves. Didnt even enjoy my weekend in peace. But i guess all these are gg to be over soon. Through tis experience, i have learnt how to work wif different types of pple..and learn of who can be trusted wif responsible tasks. I guess all these are process of growing up bah.

Hari Raya

2006-10-24T17:55:00.000+08:00

Hee..time to blog again. Hmm.so long nv blog. Start from last thursday bah. Was supposed to be on counter duty de..but so heng that i have one GE..coz got walk in. Then do lo..didnt bring anything, and the CL room 2 has poor ergonomics lo. ANyway, after which, in e last slot, sok hong's px pang seh..so let her do scl fitting on me. She veri funny de lo..i sit there laugh until drop. Haha..anyway, shant elaborate what she did...later she come after me. Then friday, had class..went home. Saturday, went to work...mr boss dunno how come these few days like weird weird de...anyway, went dinner with jeremy and tp after work..so long nv c him liao..still the same old lamer. HAha..den sunday went to SOA screening..feel guilty coz didnt help much..and sok hong was her usual self, making me laugh wif her mistakes bah. Haha..no offence leh ger. :D ..after which, went to Vivo wif sok hong..both of us wanted to find something to eat, and we ended up at banquet..coz the two of us not good wif directions. After which, went to sentosa wif jeremy and frens..played beach volley ball..kaoz..hand hurts..and i m surprised i could still play piano after that.. Monday, had class..two hours..then did fyp. By the time we finished, it was rahinning cats and dogs..thus ling and i waited while di siaoing hwee teng's fyp grp. Then we went home together. Tuesday...which is today, i was awoken up by the bustle and hustle from the mosque near my house. Did my GE ppt..prac piano, played tons of computer games..(which i immensely regretted) and here i m, chatting online. I tink later i shall go prepare for my CL ppt bah..but a bit lazy leh..haha..shall c how, too much computer work will lead to more rapid progression of myopia, esp when i m already seeing lotsa floaters. Hmm..i realised that it's been quite a long time since i can rest at home for the whole day without going out le. Realli appreciate the time spent today. Hee..lastly, happy Hari Raya..and happy bdae to my dearest, cutest and blurrest li hua..hee..muacks..!

birthday over...19th alreadi...

2006-10-18T10:44:00.000+08:00

Hi pple!!~ So long nv blog le..coz wasnt at home till pretty late, den didnt hav the heart to wake my dad up coz the comp is in his room. Lemme see...hmm...clinic has started for almost a month le..things are good..the part time clinicians are getting beter and less stingy with their grades. It is less than three months before we graduate. Class has been pretty enjoyable coz it's realli relaxing. Last friday, the mushrooms presented me wif an earli bdae present. Thanks gers..and thanks li hua, harrison, and my dearest lao gong!!~ Hee..like it alot, but my figure not good la..later wear le, pple vomit blood how?? Haha.. Then on 16th...i didnt realli feel like celebrating coz it felt meaningless bah..and bdae has never failed to bring back some bad memories from the past, reminding me of my stupid mistakes. Thus, initially, i didnt feel like celebrating de..but half way while working, i suddenly feel like meeting my mushrooms..so msg dayne to see if they are available at nite..sadly, our lala wasnt able to make it..so i said nvm lo. Then who noes tp knew about my bdae..then celebrated for me..so i want to clarify that i wasnt becoz tp was celebrating for me so i didnt want the mushroom gathering.. U guys noe me well enuf that i m not those kind of pple rite.. Anyway, wanna thank him for celebrating for me. So this saturday, we are gg to have our mushroom outing!! Told tp i not gg to work le..coz i tink on a public holiday, wont have too mani pple bah..at most after that, i go down and help out after i finish gg out wif my dearies. Mushrooms!!~ Where shall we go this sat?? Zoo? Kbox? High Tea?? Hee...long time dun have outing le..or we go beach? I tink i will realli miss these outings after we graduated from SP..after all, time will be more packed..and it will be harder to meet up..but i trust that our friendship will be able to withstand all these and we will still be able to meet up rite?? Hmm..that's al for now. Lastly, wanna thank all those who have msg me to wish me happy bdae..pple like tze siang, hwee teng, huiting, yiwen, enci, esther and alot alot more..thanks so much for making me feel loved. Muacks..

So long nv blog again

2006-10-04T22:12:00.000+08:00

Though i try to make it a point to blog every now and then, but i find it hard la, owing to my pure laziness. Hmm..feel kinda sick nowadays. I tink the haze is realli affecting my health. Head feels kinda heavy and throat kinda irritated. Well, at least this week no need to work. No doubt i enjoy work, but somehow, i tink i lack slp, and it's making me short in attention span. Cant even practise piano or do other things for long without getting restless. Anyway, shall realli try to get more slp and work out abit, so as to have a physically and mentally healthy body and mind. Hee..bdae coming. Seems so sian..perhaps the hope of wanting to grow up and be more matured dimishes through the years. Although u have lived through sweet 18...but part of u may just wish that time will nv go on. Somehow, being 18 has been the most tiring and impactful year of my life. I hope that 19 yrs old is gg to be easy...no more frustations on certain stuff..more mild temper..and look young forever. Haha..anyway, i tink i will probably be spending my dae alone on my bdae..realli been so long since i have spent quality time wif myself. Lotsa things to tink about, to consider and to forget. If i were to be granted one wish, i will wish that some things have never happened.

First clinic session for sem two.

2006-09-28T21:52:00.000+08:00

Haiz..basically, veri disappointed wif my performance in clinic today. Thought that i will be able to do better than that. And that Mr 5 mark didnt make me feel any better. Hmm..shall just treat it as a lesson and do better next time. Somehow, i feel that i m not ready for the legislation yet. I dunno what lies ahead and i dunno whether i should stay in this trade. Today realli got me pretty dishearted..perhaps that's the side effect of something else bah. Haiz..who cares..tomolo is gg to be a better day.

LAst sem of my poly life..

2006-09-26T09:56:00.000+08:00

Time flies..although life is an endless journey of learning, but my learning in poly shall end soon. In other three months' time, i will be in the society, working as an optometrist. Sounds great..but somehow, the legislation isnt part of what i expected when i entered the course. Well, just hope that i wont get sued for any negliance on my part. TP went for holidays le, meaning that no more naggin from the boss during working hours. Hmm..well, sch is starting today. Feeling kinda sad, coz didnt do much except to work and play doing the holidays. Shall realli concentrate on my interest and do what i like. Afterall, we only live once, so might as well live it to the fullest. Looking at our timetable, only for so little modules, but clinic is gg to the be most siong. Hopefully, can be able to get an A for my clinic module this time round. Shall not make stupid mistakes like forgetting to switch off the light when do VF and making nice teachers like monica vomit blood. Haha..gg to sch later..tata..

Sian

2006-09-22T23:11:00.000+08:00

So long never blog le. This week has been hectic and tiring…I tink I m gg to break down physically soon if I dun have a good rest. Monday, went back to sch for the smoking seminar, learnt lots of interesting stuff. Tuesday to Thursday, had the vision screening for taxi drivers. Dun tink I will wan to take a taxi for at least the next three months unless necessary..some of the uncles so cheeky…and abit ‘di goh’. Today, was my turn to do FYP. Mr friendly ghost was supposed to come. I msg him twice last nite, but he didn’t reply. Assuming that he was tired, I didn’t call him. This morning..subject was late for 20 minutes. But I truly appreciate the phrase : ‘Better late than never’. And our friendly ghost didn’t even come. His hp was off..and he left me alone to do FYP. Just great..and I didn’t have lunch..coz nobody to take over. I noe some pple are just more busy than others, wif lots of other commitments. But, I dun tink I m less busy as compared. Seriously pissed off. Anyway, forget it, lucky today no kids..or not u will see me in IMH le. Actually gg out wif bro tonite de..but not feeling well..i tink ecoz of not enuf rest..and moreover, ytd nite had steamboat..and ever since then, stomach dun exactly feel veri comfortable. Tomolo gg working!!~ Hee..so long nv work le..miss my colleagues. That’s all for now..Tata!~

Sunday..

2006-09-17T11:00:00.000+08:00

How come time flies when u are havin fun? Hmm..this holiday has been a pretty short one. And gg back to IGARD to work feels like my attachment time in April..except that some pple who are there are no longer there. Hmm..tp asked me to go back and work after i graduate in Jan next year. (If i sucessfully graduate without failing my clinic..haha..) Hmm..shall give it a thought bah..anyway, i realli enjoy working there wif my colleagues..except that i dun like it when the boss is ard. Yesterday was a hectic day. Patients come in together in a herd...kaoz..it took me four attempts to finish my lunch..and on the fifth attempt, i decided to throw away my lunch, coz it was already six plus. Was pretty drained after work..den went upstairs to work on the chinese pamplet thingy...finally finished it. After which, went out for dinner wif him. It is amazing how come he can show a black face then act as if nothing has happened. And it's also amazing how come i can bear this kind of attitude. Hmm..after which, went for dinner..n had movie..watched John Tucker must die..haha..this movie veri hilarious lo..lolx...was laughing my head off throughout the whole movie. Although the story line veri plain..but the contents pretty funny lo..should go and watch!!~ I also wanna watch 'the banquet'..shall c when i have time to go for movies again..after all, next week is gg to be a pretty busy week..gg back to sch for screenings and seminars. At least i will get to c my lovable mushrooms..coz ever since the holiday started, 1/3 of my time goes to IGARD, 1/3 goes to FYP, and the rest goes to my beauty slp. This is gg to be the last semester we will be together. I seriously dunno what will happen in future, whether we will still be staying in contact..whether we will still be in this line..but no matter what..i will miss the times we have.

Sad..

2006-09-14T23:12:00.000+08:00

How come having known u for quite a while, i realised that when i look at u, i somehow feel that i realli dun understand u...i dun understand wat u want and i dunno what u are tinking. Truthfully, i realli enjoy hanging out wif u..but somehow, i tink that i m just plain stubborn and it was ytd, then i realised that actualli i m a ger who gets jealous easily. Shouldnt have said those things ytd nite..if u are reading my blog, i m sorry. But hope dat one day, ur temper can be curbed too. What's wrong wif wanting to be appreciated? Somehow, i regretted..regretted knowing u...

Memories

2006-09-06T23:55:00.000+08:00

Today, had eyescreening cum roadshow in some industrial company. Feel happy, coz this is the only day which i have sold ard 6 specs in a day...But upset coz kena 'bird' by someone. Then show me 'the face'. So ended up, i didnt even have the appetite for lunch...threw away my lunch after eating the ingredients..n didnt touch the rice. But thinking about it, it is oso my fault bah. Shouldnt have irritated him further. AFter roadshow, went back shop to work. Got sorta pissed off...by one china customer..haha..now i understand how stella feels. Then after which, wanted to go home, but decided to accompany him to go eat. On the way, we talked aobut some things...and it made me realise that in the world, nothing is consistently there. Things change so rapidly. It made me worried that i m so customed to having certain pple and frens ard in life, how m i gg to get used if any of them left? I noe it is gg to happen one day..but i just hope that it wont be of the near future. I tink i m gg to miss the days.

So long nv update le..

2006-09-05T22:25:00.000+08:00

Back again..!!~ To clear off all the cobwebs, cabbage whatever. Haha..been such a hectic week, so didnt update blog. Lemme start wif last week. Had attaachment in Tan tock seng..was realli fun..and learnt alot of new things. Had great fun wif stella..haha..(rite lala?) Lazy to blog what i have learnt..hmm..for more info..just go see stella's blog. Haha..then after attachment, life goes on, sat go work, sun go do fyp. Somehow, i feel that my life lacks something..dunno what is that..but some element that keeps my mood high and my life interesting. Then monday, went to work again. Hee..poor dayne and stella kena ms hong's kid. Well, i suppose they can be considered experts in handling children le bah. Haha...at least the two kids finished le. Then today, went sch for fyp. Wei kee finally finished..and min jie clear off quite a bit. The kids' holidays are coming to an end..stress is building up..haha..then tomolo gg to work again. Piano practice seems to be veri little lately. SHall promise myself to go home after work or sch and not go out le..i wanna be guai kid..hmm. That's all for now..will try to update as frequently as i can. But afterall, i m a boring person..so what do u expect me to write? Haha..

rise and shine...

2006-08-22T11:13:00.000+08:00

Today is tuesday...woke up at 7 plus and bathe..mom bought me breakfast..but didnt each much, coz remembered the mcfurry ice cream i had late last nite, it made me feel so guilty siar..tink i m gg to gain weight le..hee..anyway, came to sch to do fyp...wif lala..haha..veri entertain siar..dunno why everytime hang out wif her, always laugh till stomach pain de..haha..rite lala?? Rmb the 75% tint? Haha..hmm..these few days always home late, then morning veri tired..shall try to get home before 11am bah..haha..that's all for now..tata..

Second week of holidays..

2006-08-21T10:51:00.000+08:00

Hmm...Supposed to be a wonderful morning. Afterall, no need to work and go sch. But my dearest sis made a din in the house and woke me up(either unintenionally or intentionally), at 8 plus, when i slept at 1 plus last nite. Now i feeling a bit blur blur gong gong one..thanks to her. Anyway, realli feeling the stress regarding fyp. Everytime look at the schedule, wif not much subjects, i will sit there and rack my brain to see who can i fill it in wif. Somehow, i guess this week, everyone is still having exams..so not as mani subjects bah. Will have to wait till next week..then will be better bah, i guess..and realli wanna apologise to my fyp mates..coz sometimes i last min then update the schedule..coz those pple last min then confirm wif me. Thus, i will just msg u guys the nite before to reconfirm got which subject the next day k? WIll try to confirm everything asap..and btw..those who are reading this entry..u got any friends who dun wear specs? Our study is greatly in need of these pple. Thanks...:D

sO TiReD

2006-08-20T19:06:00.000+08:00

Have been working for the last four days. At roadshow in NUS for freshmen. Haha..did so mani refractions and sold specs..then sat went to IGARD...worked till 7pm..but somehow, went to tampines wif TP and reached home at 12 plus. Kaoz..my eyebags getting deeper. Help!! ANyway, this morning woke up at 8 plus...had breakfast..then practised piano. Prac halfway..went to lie on the bed for a while and to my horror..i fell aslp! Slept till 5pm..then continue to practise and after which had dinner. So basically, it has been quite a boring day for me. But nevertheless, i realli feel so relaxed today, perhaps due to the hectic schedule that i had for e past few days. Hmm..feel guilty..coz these few days, when fyp subjects call me..i wasnt able to pick up the fone..coz was doing roadshow..and the place was so crowded..so i left my belongings in the bag. Hey fyp grp mates..so sorry about the schedule thingy..will make sure it's uploaded and all of u are informed of the schedule. Hmm..so slpy again..i guess that's all for now. Hee..tata!~

sad

2006-08-15T23:11:00.000+08:00

I m sad...sad about how fragile friendships are...or is it just me..who dunno how to treasure them? Hmm..i dunno..just feeling moody..

New skin..

2006-08-14T17:00:00.000+08:00

Hee..finally changed to the other one. This one cuter. Hmm..today, woke up at 12 plus in the afternoon. Got the shock of my life..coz not used to waking up so late. Missed my breakfast..and now my poor muffin is still lying ard on the table, waiting to be eaten. Hmm..after which, i went to study abit..but holiday mood leh..after studying, went online..chatted wif john..didnt noe he got such mature thoughts..haha..then went to call stella..joked and chatted for ard an hour. Lala!!~ Dun remind me of that uncle who said..."where u bringing me?? Holland ar?" Lame uncle..haha..tomolo got class..then holidays no need to go back for class liao..Yea!! Hmm..but still got fyp..and still gotta work for quite a lot of days these month i tink. Tired..i tink not enuf slp yet..or m i turning into a pig soon? Haha..shall go online for a while more..then go prac piano le..looking forward to gg esplanade to look for new scores. Looking forward to an enriching holiday ahead..! TAta..!!~

Changed to a new skin...

2006-08-13T21:41:00.000+08:00

Tada!!~ Due to the fact that i m waiting for someone online..so nth to do. THus, decide to change to a new blogskin...nice? Hmm..find that it's kinda sweet. Hee..that's all bah. Shall go watch tv lst..hee..nitex..

OMG..it's holidays..

2006-08-12T21:51:00.000+08:00

At last...the long awaited holidays arrived. But ytd morning, due to some unforseen circumstances, i was late for clinic. Kena demerit lo..i tink. ANyway,i gotta write a letter explaining what happened. It took me half an hour to finish it. And then called sokie regarding fyp. Tired siarz...then this morning, woke up at 530am..coz i meeting subject at 7.15..then this guy here veri cute..msg me at 6.45 saying that he just woke up..then keep apologising. Haha..anyway, felt kinda guilty coz made him wake up so earli, then kept torturing him till ard 2pm..till he was too tired to continue. Hee..alan..sorry la. Then today, daniel came. That kid quite cute and guai. Just that he couldnt seem to understand our test..no matter how hard he tried. So in the end, we had to reject him. So sad..there goes another emmetrope. After which, i went to work. Was pretty bad. Wanted to do retinal phototaking de..then a px came for cl delivery. And she just want to try see if she can wear. HOwever, stupid me was struggling wif her for 3 hrs..and tp gave me his famous "smile", wif a tinge of sarcasm. And i got him into his mood of endless suaning ...and tio suan again. Haiz..i tink he simply finds me clumsy and low intelligent. Too bad, i m still learning. But i m realli trying hard to make things rite le..gimme some time k? Feeling kinda demoralised. Hmm...should be able to get over it. And tue got Mr rajeev test...havent study yet..help!! Haha..gotta go msn chat for a while then perhaps do some studying le..hehe...tata...!!~

Happy national day.

2006-08-09T09:28:00.000+08:00

Somehow, i was just wondering what was i doing last year this time. And what will i be doing next time this year. Things change every year. Perhaps that's the way life is. Changes are inevitable..but somehow, if things are the same, how nice will it be. Hmm...national day..but usually i m not interested in the parade de..so i will just watch the dvd i borrowed bah. And later i gg out for shopping..desperately need a decent pair of formal shoes that does inflict pain to my feet. And perhaps gg down to bugis to buy a bag. I tink my sis' bag realli too big for my liking le..although can realli store lots of things. Hee..been tinking about the future..how i wish i will be able to meet the future me..wouldnt it be interesting? Haha..lol..

Haiz..

2006-08-08T21:07:00.000+08:00

I have decided to defer my contract for christofori...decided to find another job in optical trade. Thinking of gg capitol ... i dun want to stay at home on weekends. Dun want to keep thinking about the happy memories..these are all the past. Perhaps i haf made e right decision...realli wanna 4get all of it.

Last week of sch..

2006-08-06T11:43:00.000+08:00

Hmm..being online pretty often nowadays..haha..coz nowhere to go, so stay at home. And my onli source of entertainment is online lo..Hmm..havent been practising my piano on a regular basis. Feel pretty guilty. Erm..shall realli work hard on my music durin the holidays bah. Anyway, today woke up feeling sick . REal sick. Thus, didnt have much mood to study. But nevertheless, i finish studying for my bmop le...stil got some qns..think will call someone and ask later. As for csw..later gg to read thru bah..then i guess that's all..coz nothing much to revise for that too. Hmm..looking forward to tomolo..gg to watch lake house. shall blog about it ..anticipating this movie ever since that time i went to watch superman. Hope that it doesnt disappoint me. This year national day, dun tink will go and see fireworks..dun wanna be reminded of those days. Hee..i tink that will be all bah. Go and study csw le..haha..tata..